If I COMPLETELY submit to this wordless direction that I shall never understand in this life and that I am unworthy to understand in the next one – then PERFECT GOODNESS can work through me.
Have you ever noticed how things are in families?
Have you ever noticed how people within a family can sometimes talk to each other without even uttering one single word?
This is what can happen in our family. When I look at my children, or my husband from a distance, I can work out what they are feeling and often, even what they are thinking – and that all happens before I even make eye contact with them… And they can do the same with me… They can see whether I am happy or sad or angry or worried and this all happens before they even get close. And it is because we know one-another and love each other too…
And I have been thinking about this sort of wordless communication while I have been thinking about the way that my Beloved communicates with me.
You see, I am no mystic, and I am no seer. I am not even a very holy or worthy soul. Instead, I am a small and miserable soul who is very flawed and mistaken and lowly and weak far more often that I would like to admit! And that means that I have never heard the voice of God explicitly in my mind or in my heart. There have been no apparitions and no special messages delivered from Celestial Mouths. Though my guardian angel has been with me since my conception and will be with me until my death, I have never heard his voice and very often forget his presence.
And yet – even so – I know that God and his angels and saints speak to me wordlessly inside my soul…
Just as my family and I can communicate wordlessly with each other, so too can the Communion of Saints – the ETERNAL family – communicate wordlessly. All I need to do to hear what it is that they have to say, is to pray for the Grace to be willing to LISTEN to them…
And in this way – through THIS GRACE – many many times have I had wordless conversations with God Himself.
How else could I explain the sudden urge to reach out to a friend never having known how great was their need? How else could I explain a strange dream, I had about a brother or a sister or a loved one, never knowing what struggles they currently experiencing never having told me? How else could I explain the quiet promptings that come to my mind as I pray, a rosary starting for one intention and quietly meandering to another – I thought I was praying for a friend and ended up praying for a stranger who walked past me in the street…
It happens ALL THE TIME. And what I have come to realise from this precious gift of Faith, is that if I surrender – if I COMPLETELY submit to this wordless direction that I shall never understand in this life and that I am unworthy to understand in the next one – then PERFECT GOODNESS can work through me.
It shall not be me working, but GOD will send HIS infinite GOODNESS to those around me – if only I can humble myself to LISTEN…
And so – knowing this – I continue to pray for the Grace of surrender. Because without that Grace I shall never be able to serve my Beloved – Lord and God, King of the Universe… And without my service to Him, what could my life possibly be worth?
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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