I annoy Him, God merely moves me to one side and continues on with His perfect plans for my life, which even now I fail to see – even now…
The other day, someone who is very dear to me made me so annoyed I could scarcely see straight. For perhaps the third time in a row this person had deliberately gone against something that I had asked her to do. My request was reasonable, and it would take almost no effort on her part to comply with my request, but she simply decided that it was not worth the bother – in other words, that I was not worth the bother, of actually dealing with the issue at hand…
And so, while I was supremely annoyed, there was nothing dire in the world and no serious problem. It was a minor inconvenience at best…
And I have been reflecting on that feeling of annoyance. You see, the less I thought about the person behind the action the more annoyed I became. My blood boiled and I thought only of the wrong done to me. But when I took a moment to reflect on the possible reasons for the other person’s annoyance, I considered things differently. I was still annoyed, but there was some compassion in my annoyance. I could understand why this person could only consider their own perspective and why they had deliberately decided to act in a manner that was decidedly inconvenient to me.
And as I have been reflecting on this experience of annoyance and understanding, it has occurred to me that I should also have considered the perspective of my God. You see, when I do stupid things that deliberately attempt to thwart the Holy Will of God, God must get so annoyed with me. There He is with all His plans laid out for MY benefit in all their glory and instead of turning to Him and saying, “Thank you very much my Blessed Lord,” instead I get under His Feet and into His way. And I do this in a way that means that God is not disturbed by my efforts – I am after all nothing when compared with my God – but those efforts of mine are an annoyance to my King, in much the same way that a mosquito buzzing near my ear is an annoyance.
And for this reason, when I consider that moment when I was so annoyed with that person who is dear to me, I consider more importantly the many times – possibly nearly an infinite number during my lifetime – when I did the same but far far worse to my Beloved God.
And when I think about that today, I am sorry for my God. For He loves me so much that when I annoy Him He merely moves me to one side and continues on with His perfect plans for my life, which even now I fail to see – even now…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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