Lord lead me where You will, for I trust in You…
I have been thinking about the timing of God.
You see there are so many times in my life that I have prayed for a miracle and so many times where that miracle has not eventuated or where things have taken a very very long time to develop.
And while I have waited – literally on the threshold of Heaven – I have thought to myself, very often, that God is not hearing my prayer, or that God does not love me enough to help me, or that God does not hear me or even care…
And I have been thinking about that as I have been reflecting on Christ’s healing the blind man…
“Some people brought to Him a blind man, and begged Him to touch Him. And He took the blind man by the hand, and led Him out of the village; and when He had spit on His eyes and laid His hands upon him, He asked him, ‘Do you see anything?’ And he looked up and said, ‘I see men; but they look like trees, walking.’ Then again He laid his hands upon his eyes; and he looked intently and was restored, and saw everything clearly.” (Mark 8:22-26).
You see, in this miracle, there was no instant cure. It was not like the healing of the haemorrhaging woman, where a simple touch of the hem of His garment cured her. It was not like commanding the evil spirits to leave those possessed. It was not even like calling the fish into the net for Saint Simon Peter… There was no sudden calming of the storm or walking on the water. Instead there was a process and there was time.
Christ led the blind man out of the village, He spat on the blind man’s eyes and then, in stages, the blind man’s vision was returned to him.
It did not happen all at once, but in stages… At first the men looked like walking trees, and then later, the men looked very clear to the man. And when I think about this today, it seems very similar to my own experience, because I feel that my Beloved takes me by the hand and leads me to the place where I need to be for the miracle to occur. But today too, I hang my head in shame, because I have spent my lifetime resisting the gentle tug on the hand by my Beloved, because I want the miracle here and now. And all this time – throughout my whole life – my Beloved is simply trying to lead me to the safe place where my miracle is waiting.
And today, I cannot help but wonder how things would be if I had simply turned to my Beloved with love and trust in my heart and said to Him… Lord lead me where You will, for I trust in You…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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