There is safety in God’s Sacred Heart. And I have spent some time resting there – thinking – on the difficult and problematic days…
There was a problem that was troubling me lately. It was a big problem and one that I had seen before in my lifetime, but I had thought that I had dealt with it and that it would never bother me again. And yet – even despite a very long a relatively peaceful time – I was once again, very unexpectedly, confronted by a serious problem that had snuck back into my life.
Now, the first time I had seen this problem I went into a blind sort of panic. I was terribly afraid and did not know how to proceed or where to go to improve my situation. I felt that no matter what decision I made, it would be the wrong decision and I was desperately afraid of the implications of that decision on my family as a whole and on my children.
In the years that passed afterwards, I judged myself very harshly for the manner in which I responded to that past crisis. I considered my reaction weak, and I also considered that the weakness of my reaction had caused the recovery from that problem to be much greater than it really should have been.
Now, this second time I was confronted with this problem, things were very different. Firstly, I was less afraid. I was less afraid of the problem itself as I had survived it once before and knew that I could survive it again. But I was also less afraid of my own involvement in my own problem. The panic was less and the thinking was more. And the reason the thinking was more was because I knew deep in my soul that God allows only things that shall turn to the Good into my life. Now, this is not to say that the problem I was encountering was a good thing – it certainly was not. And this is not to say that I welcomed the problem into my life – because I certainly did not. But it is to say that I understood in the quiet part of my mind that God had a place in this problem and that just as I had made a tangle of things, He would untangle them.
And though this did not make the problem any less big or the situation any more pleasant, this knowledge allowed me to think – and to think clearly. And in this way, I was able to take some refuge in my Beloved. And maybe that is exactly what I needed – a few days of hanging out with my Beloved in my thoughts – just Him and me.
Mulling things over as I went about my day, and reflecting on the glory of God, and there was a warm comfort in this, even despite the problem. Because there is safety in God’s Sacred Heart. And I have spent some time resting there – thinking – on the difficult and problematic days…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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