My Beloved loves me with a Father’s Heart and He will solve every problem for me – if only I stop rushing around, stand still and calmly ask Him to…
I spend most of my life rushing around trying to get everything done and sorted.
While I am working on one thing, I am often distracted by another and that just means that I am never truly engaged with the thing at hand.
My experience is – I am sure – no different from the experience of any other working mother. And unlike so many other mothers, I am luckier than most as I have the support of my husband and extended family who can help me to do whatever it is that needs to be done.
And yet, even despite all the support, it can at times feel as though I am spending my life running around and trying to keep up with everything and completed overwhelmed by the sheer volume of work I have at hand. And this feeling of being overwhelmed most often translates into a feeling of inefficiency and ineffectiveness…
And I have been thinking about that today, because that feeling of inefficiency and ineffectiveness is the single biggest contributor of what is wrong with me in this world.
The other night I was lying in bed thinking about a problem that had been bothering me for a while. It was not an awful and terrible problem, rather it was an annoying one. And as I was lying there thinking about all the possible ways to make another person simply do things according to my plan – which is in essence most of the problems that I encounter in life – I had a sudden revelation.
All this time I have been worried about how I am supposed to fix a thing. I rush from here to there with the sole intention of having some control over some aspect of some part of my life. And yet – even despite all that rushing – there remain unfixable problems that I simply cannot conquer. There remain unfixable problems that seem to be getting in the way of everything in my life and they stop me from being able to focus on what I need to focus on in this world.
And the other night as I was thinking about this problem, it suddenly occurred to me that God does not need me to fix anything. I am not created to fix things. I am created to live my life. I am created to go about my day with complete trust in God. The problems that I encounter are the problems that He has allowed me to encounter. And when they pop up, I am asked to face them calmly and to look them in the eye – so to speak – and to know that all will be well…
Because all is well.
And when I think of it like that, I know that I have nothing to fear. Because my Beloved loves me with a Father’s Heart and He will solve every problem for me – if only I stop rushing around, stand still and calmly ask Him to…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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