"Let the weak, sinful souls have no fear to approach Me, for even if it had more sins that there are grains of sand in the world, all would be drowned in the unmeasurable depths of My mercy.” (Diary Entry 1059).
I have no patience with anything or anyone and I never have had any. From the time I was a little girl, I have always wanted to get things done quickly. In fact, during my years at school, I was notorious as a child who would complete assessments quickly just to clear them off my desk. And I have remained that way throughout my adult life.
People often struggle to work with me because I tend to be very pushy in getting things completed and I hack, hack, hack away at things over and over again relentlessly until I have got to the end of a matter. And I mention this lack of patience and this pushiness not as a compliment to my own personality and behaviour, but rather as a criticism of it.
And another criticism is that I always have a ready answer in an argument. And just like my lack of patience, this means that things will go on and on and on for all the days of my Earthly life. Because when I rush through tasks it does not mean that I have any fewer tasks to complete, it simply means that I have finished one batch and will need to start on another. And I have been thinking about that over the last days and weeks because it will never be over and I shall spend all the days of my Earthly life arguing back and justifying and explaining and rationalising.
But this is not how it will be in Eternity…
In the moment of my death – when my family are still crying over my body at the side of my bed. At that moment – in that INSTANT – I will have been judged by my Beloved and I will be in either Heaven, or Purgatory (or God Forbid, Hell). And while my family will be kissing my cheek and stroking my hand and crying and talking to me, I will be there in eternity.
And that is a sobering thought. You see, I am a person who spends my life arguing my case and reasoning through any possibility. And yet, in that moment there will be no reasoning and no arguing and no rationalising. There will also be no rushing to complete a task and there will be no arguing my way out of it. Because in PERFECT justice, the Lord will judge me and in PERFECT justice His decision will be made in an instant based on the truth of my life.
And knowing that today, I pray for His Mercy… For that is the only hope of salvation for a soul as miserable as mine…
And I know this because Saint Faustina quoted the words of Christ in her diary when she wrote, “So that every soul will praise My goodness. I desire trust from My creatures. Encourage souls to place great trust in My fathomless mercy. Let the weak, sinful souls have no fear to approach Me, for even if it had more sins that there are grains of sand in the world, all would be drowned in the unmeasurable depths of My mercy.” (Diary Entry 1059).
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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