There must be something that is calling to me beyond the inconvenient.
The other day I was out with my family. We were away on holiday and we were with some other people. As a group of young families we had quite a nice time socialising with each other and enjoying each other’s company.
During the course of the weekend, I wished to attend Holy Mass. I was not doing this because I was in some way showing off to anyone. I was not even doing this because I was worried about the sinfulness of not keeping Holy the Sabbath. Instead, I was doing this because I felt a deep need inside my soul to speak to my Beloved in the Holy Mass and the experience Communion with Him in the Holy Eucharist.
And so, I took myself off to Mass and spent about forty-five minutes in prayer at a local parish.
Some people would say that this was quite inconvenient. After all, we were on holiday, and we had the opportunity to relax and enjoy our time without any demands on that time of ours. And yet, there I was, inserting an actual demand on my own time – stopping myself from sleeping in – just so that I could have an opportunity to go and speak to my Beloved in the Church.
And I have been thinking about that today – because there must be something there that is more than the superficial that we see. There must be something that is calling to me beyond the inconvenient. When I returned to the group after this brief outing, some of the other children – who are not Catholic – were intrigued by the inconvenience of the experience. After all, they reasoned, isn’t it quite boring to go out and pray?
And I suppose that when I was a little girl, I would have wondered the same thing myself. But with the experience of age, I can see that there is nothing boring about prayer. Because my prayer is a conversation with my Beloved. And why would I ever be bored to be in the presence of perfect love?
How could I be bored to be communing with my Heavenly Father who knows me from the instant of His vision of me prior to my creation? How would I be bored in the presence of the immortal? What more could I want other than to be in the presence of the Being who loves me most and loves me perfectly?
And I have been thinking about this as I have been thinking about the fallacy of the inconvenience caused by worshiping my Lord and God… Because it seems to me that there is such a great challenge in overcoming my human frailty to the point where I am able to see the real value that the world can offer and the appreciate that such value lies NOT in this world, but beyond it – with my God, with my Beloved God…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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