My God is an awesome God and there is nothing that I shall want (Psalm 29)…
Recently, someone very dear to me underwent exploratory surgery.
The surgery was initially expected to be very minor, but as a result of the information uncovered during the procedure, it became a more extensive procedure than expected.
As this person was booking in for this surgery, she initially felt very silly indeed. After all she had no real proof that anything was wrong and needed surgical intervention and she also had no real evidence that she was not in fact being quite overly dramatic and would not need any surgery at all to rectify the problem that she was experiencing.
When she was informed by her surgeon that her surgery had been a success and that there had in fact been a problem that had been uncovered and rectified, she felt relieved that she had actually persevered and undergone the procedure as planned.
And I have been thinking about this experience today as I have been thinking about faith.
So much of our faith is like the hidden problem that this dear person experienced. There is something there – beneath the physical, something that we cannot put into words in a way that does it justice. There is some feeling, some presence, some eventuality that is not tangible or physical but is as real as if it were standing next to me and touching my skin. In fact, I know that God and my Guardian Angel, and even perhaps the Angels and the Saints are at times standing right next to me and touching my very skin – even though I cannot see them.
And just as my dear one needed to rely on the doctor to make decisions over which she had no control, and just as my dear one had to trust that doctor in his decision making, so too do I need to rely on God and trust in Him and know that He is working on things that I cannot even see.
And just as a surgery requires some pain and suffering and some time in recovery, so too does my act of faith require some suffering and time with God in waiting for Him to decide to heal me spiritually.
And I have been thinking about that today. Because there are things in the world that are so far beyond the physical that I barely have the time to consider them. And when I stop to think about that today I am overcome. For how lucky I am to be a child of my God, who takes the time to operate on me – even when I doubt both Him and myself – because He knows what is best of me and is willing to get it all sorted out…
For my God is an awesome God and there is nothing that I shall want (Psalm 29)…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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