God is waiting for me to turn to Him – eventually…
It is clear that we need to wait for things. Many times, I think I am supposed to act on something and in fact God is just sitting there waiting for me to get into position so that He is able to swoop in…
“Jesus sent His disciples to every town and place that He Himself was about to visit. Our Lord would go and He would meet them. They would see Him, hear His preaching and even talk to Him. But before that, His disciples had to prepare the people of those towns and places. They had to communicate the Good News: 'Jesus was about to come!'
In this I am just like Christ’s disciples. Christ sends me out to prepare others for His arrival. It is my job – as a disciple of Christ – to be ready to meet others as Christ would meet them so that they can be ready for God… It is a personal connection between me and them, but between us is God Himself – just as He stood between the disciples and their congregation when Christ sent them out to preach…
There are so many times when I pray for a soul and see nothing. I pray for the recovered health of someone and see them continue to deteriorate. I pray for the spiritual cleanliness of another and see them continue to make terrible life choices that indicate that they are anything other than healthy from a spiritual perspective. I think about all the people who I have on my list of prayers and instead of seeing serious or continued improvement, it seems instead that my time is wasted.
And that is just when I pray for others.
What about when I pray for myself?
Now, there is a conundrum. I pray for patience in the morning before I get out of bed, and within five minutes of rising, I am impatient with my children for being slow to get organised in the mornings. I pray for charity in my heart and not five minutes after I receive the Blessed Sacrament during Holy Mass, I am already uncharitable with the parishioners leaving the car park at the Church, thinking about how they are delaying me and making my life somehow worse. I pray for peace in my spirit – for the ability to accept the Holy Will of God without resistance, and then I spend my time fighting God’s Will and trying to impose my own tiny little will on the Will of the Divine – No God. That is wrong. I need you to do it this way please…
And when I list those things out it seems utterly ridiculous. After all, what possible reason could I have to act in this mindless manner when all along, God is waiting for me to turn to Him – eventually..? What possible reason could I have…?
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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