Through my disobedience I am destroying the rest of my day – which is eternity… I am destroying it all…
Disobedience is possibly the worst of my pet hates!
When I ask a child to get something done and they make a decision to disobey me, I experience such a wave of sadness and disappointment that I can barely cope with the feeling. I do not often cry in anger. I do not often cry in sadness. But I very often cry in the frustration that is caused by disobedience.
And I have been reflecting on that today. You see, when a child disobeys an instruction is normally means that they have deliberately made a decision to rely on their own inferior knowledge to make decisions that will result in an inferior outcome, and this decision can lead to all sorts of problems.
For example, if I ask a child to get out of bed in the morning to get ready for school, they could choose to disobey me. If they disobey me, it means that they are deciding that their own comfort in bed in that moment is more important than making the necessary preparations for their school day that day. And what does that mean? Well, it means in the moment – while they are disobeying me and staying in bed – they are warm and cosy and quite relaxed. But it also means that when the day begins and they miss the bus, they could be late for school, and this will mean they get into trouble – either from me as their mother or their teachers at school. It could also mean that they forget to pack the appropriate books and equipment that they would need that day as they had less time to prepare. And this means that they may be uncomfortable for the rest of their day. And so, those few minutes of comfort, which came through their disobedience, caused them to experience a day’s worth of discomfort.
And I have been reflecting on that today as I have been thinking about my Blessed Lord and how much I must disappoint Him through my own disobedience. I have always looked accusingly at Adam and Eve and their disobedience in the Garden of Eden and thought – shame on them. But how many times do I look at myself and consider all the sins of my own soul? How many times do I look inward at the millions of lies I have told in a lifetime, the millions of gossips I have shared, the trillions of complaints about others? How many times do I consider my own disobedience and consider how much I must frustrate my Beloved?
And today, as I consider how far-reaching are the consequences of my disobedience, I hang my head in shame – for my Beloved does all things for me and for my GOOD and all He asks is that I obey Him. And all I spend my Earthly life doing is disobeying. And through that disobedience I am destroying the rest of my day – which is eternity… I am destroying it all…
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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