“Determined is the day of justice, the day of divine wrath. The angels tremble before it.” (Saint Faustina Diary 625).
I have been angry about something for the last few days and weeks. Sometimes, life is just not fair and the feeling of injustice becomes overwhelming and causes me to experience deep and overpowering anger.
Now, this anger that I feel today is not the same feeling that I experienced prior to my conversion. Then, what I felt was deeply unsettling in my soul and washed across all other facets of my life. This time, there is an anger in the background of my soul, but not a destructive one. It is an angery at injustice.
When I was a little school girl, I remember very well, learning about anger. I remember my teachers explaining that anger of itself was not a negative thing and that the experience of the emotion of anger could be used for great GOOD by God. But I could not really understand how that could work and what that could mean. And then – the other day – I read a passage from the Gospel…
“Jesus went up to Jerusalem. In the temple He found those who were selling oxen and sheep and pigeons, and the money-changers at their business. And making a whip of cords, He drove them all, with the sheep and oxen, out of the temple; and He poured out the coins of the money-changers and overturned their tables. And He told those who sold the pigeons, ‘Take these things away; you shall not make My Father’s house a house of trade.’” (John 2:13-22).
And I saw the GOOD in a righteous anger. I saw the GOOD in GOD’S ANGER. And I have been reflecting on the righteous anger of God. You see, in focusing on the Merciful Lord and Saviour, I have forgotten to consider the magnanimity of God, who came to Earth to save me from my sins. I have forgotten that God is the Creator of the World and the Final Judge. Saint Faustina wrote in her Diary that upon seeing God the Just Judge, she trembled with fear and appealed unstintingly to the Mercy of God through the Divine Mercy. You see, if we really consider what is JUSTLY or FAIRLY owed to us, then I would realise that in fact nothing at all is owed to me and I am in fact ENTIRELY dependent on the mercy and justice of God.
Saint Faustina wrote in her Dairy 625, “March 25. In the morning, during meditation, God’s presence enveloped me in a special way, as I saw the immeasurable greatness of God and, at the same time, His condescension to His creatures. Then I saw the Mother of God, who said to me, Oh, how pleasing to God is the soul that follows faithfully the inspirations of His grace! I gave the Saviour to the world; as for you, you have to speak to the world about His great mercy and prepare the world for the Second Coming of Him who will come, not as a merciful Saviour, but as a just Judge. Oh, how terrible is that day! Determined is the day of justice, the day of divine wrath. The angels tremble before it. Speak to souls about this great mercy while it is still the time for [granting] mercy. If you keep silent now, you will be answering for a great number of souls on that terrible day. Fear nothing. Be faithful to the end. I sympathize with you.”
And so it is that I write today… For if I keep silent now, I “will be answering for a great number of souls on that terrible day…”
For with prayer, I stand on Holy Ground where everything is clear. Here. At the Foot of the Cross.
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